I am diving in the depths of the ocean inside seeking the truth behind the curtains of pain. Creating space to soar up high in the sky and experience the joy and play of existence. I am starting to overflow and am longing for a space to share, connect and inspire others to join this divine journey towards the love we already are.
Letting love come closer The warmth and the nourishment of a loving touch I am willing to let go of my demons to open the door for love… …but first I have to look him straight in the eye and say goodbye
A girl is sitting under a tree and asking for a mother “I do not have any arms to hold you” she says “That’s okay” says the girl “my mother also doesn’t hold me” “Okay” says the tree “but I don’t have any ears to listen” “My mother also doesn’t listen to me” says the girl “Okay” says the tree “I can’t see you I don’t have any eyes” “It’s okay” says the girl “my mother has eyes byt she still doesn’t see me”
The tree stands still, unwavering The girl lies down in her own embrace and lets the tree hold her Not saying anything, not looking, not listening, but still a mother Still place to come home to, a place to feel safe, welcome, embraced A little girl was lying under a tree and in the tree’s embrace she rocked herself to sleep
Urging to escape from my sorrows If I let go what will I have? The monsters are my best friends the darkness is my shelter and fear my only thrill
Ecstasy only lasts so long and once I have seen through the endless cycle of highs and lows the game looses its hook in me
What is left is a stagnant lake a grey shade of something that is no longer here
It is my safety my hell My mind is allowed to roam freely here To dream, to long for, to pretend and disguise anything that is real Here I can be a victim a dancer and a lover without having to lift a finger… The only problem is that I am dreaming and in these days I am missing life I am wasting away and falling further and further away from my truth, my center and from anything that can bring light into my darkness